Portland,OR

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I rode my motorcycle to Prtland, OR. It was a long ride. Felt tired but ok after getting to portland last night. Thank you Gof for keeping me safe.

VA Appointment 05/23/2011

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Hi Friends,
I saw a new primary care doctor at the VA here in San Diego.

My primary concern is that my pain level has increased and the medications were not working so they super sized it you might say. The doctor told me I can no longer drink any alcohol.I was told beer and such will not only make me drowsy and dizzy, but very good chance it would kill me. Sucks for me, but I think I will listen to the doctor this time. I was also highly advised not to ride my motorcycle anymore. Sorry Doc,as long as I can support the bike, I am going to ride.
I swear sometimes the doctors just want to bring me down. She asked me if I was given a expected expiration date and I said no. She told me that I have already lived four years past  life expectancy for someone with Renal Cell cancer and the Bone Cancer is moving fast. She said I cannot tell you how long you have left but she has only known of one person with my illness who has lived longer than me after the cancer was discovered and I should enjoy what life I have left.  I'm not ashamed to say she got a few tears rolling down my face, but I refuse to give in. I have friends who I love and know they love me too. I am living in one of the best places in the world. I have faith, I have friends and family ,I have love, hope, desire, and a passion for living and loving. I ain't done yet.

No News Is Good News

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Hi Friends! I'm sorry I have not posted anything for the last several weeks. The good news is I AM HAPPY.
I am living in the San Diego area with friends. I have new relationships and have been reminded how much I am loved. Thank you God for new beginings.

A Day in Dallas

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Hi Friends,
I spent the day in Dallas yesterday. I am beginning to really hate GPS devices. Perhaps life would be better to break out an old fashion map. That darn thing would tell me to turn 15 seconds after I went past the road. It had me going in circles before I just shut the darn thing off and just followed my nose. During my drive I had the opportunity to donate money to the town of Terrell Texas, thanks to a friendly state trooper. The officer, while hiding behind an over pass wall, got me going 75 in a 65. You’re welcome Terrell Texas. Once I got to the hospital, I was amazed by how nice everyone was. Every staff member was pleasant and helpful, and there was this cool comradeship with all the Vets.

All the people being treated were disabled Vets. I have never seen a prouder bunch of people. I think I may have been one of the few people (yes there was both male and female Vets), who was not wearing a ball cap representing their service. Some said Vietnam Vet, others said things like Marine Corps, Navy, Army, and so on. It was such a cool feeling to be surrounded by my brothers and sisters in arms. It made me proud to be among them.
The cardiologist is putting me on a new medication, and my Oncologist mainly went over my records. He did have a concern that my right hip is either fractured or close to fracturing. He took X-Rays of it, but I still feel pretty good. I have been trying to remember to wear my back support.
To top off how well I was treated by the VA, they gave me $78 for gas money.

So overall it was a good, but long day. I felt like I got allot of things done and that I am going to be well cared for by the VA. Serving my country has had its benefits.

You Got a Friend II

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For my friends. Near or far, you are part of my life and will always be in my heart.

You've Got a Friend

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Hi Friends. Its a beautiful day in Tyler Texas.I'm thinking about you and hope your week is going well. Even though I may not speak to you directly anymore, you are and always will be in my thoughts. Its nice to know you think about me enough to still be a member of this blog. It means allot to me.

I have an appointment with the Dallas VA tomorrow for Oncology and Cardiology. This is a true blessing. I am getting all my medications now from the VA, and so far they have not charged me a penny. My pain has not been too bad as long as I remember to wear my back support when I ride my bike. I also got a little too frisky cleaning house and some limited yard work. I feel much better this week. I woke up with chest pains again this morning, but was fine after taking a nitro tablet. I'm still not sure if it is chest pain or Acid Reflux. A doctor from the VA wants me to start taking something for Acid Reflux. We will see what difference that makes.
Looks like a good day for a ride. Varoooom.

02-23-11

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 Sorry I have not posted anything for the last few days. I have had some good news though. I have an appointment with the VA Hospital in Dallas for Oncology and Cardiology. It also looks like I found a place to live in San Diego that will work out very well. Thank you Mike for coming through for me. I have been feeling physically very good, emotionally, its a roller coaster. I only took two pain pills all day yesterday and none at all today.

I have a depression that is filling my heart tonight. I have no right to. Everyone has been so kind to me. It seems my knack for blowing friendships and matters of the heart continues to plague me. I wish I could just get on my bike and ride. Ride away from medical problems, ride away from loneliness, and ride away from bills, just ride till my time runs out. I'm sure God must ride too. Can you imagine what his bike looks like? I can't wait to ride in his formation.
 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vNBEiyGwGRc
While my Guitar gently weeps.

VA

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Hi Friends,
I went to the VA today and it looks like they are going to cover me on all my medical conditions. This is such great news. I hurt my back a little on my motorcycle. Hit a dip at 50 mph and tweaked my back just a bit. It was cool being airborne for a few seconds. Good night my friends. I miss you.

Get Back up Again

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I don't have much to say today that would be constructive. I thought I would share one of my favorite songs instead.


 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zrv0kF2zZfA
Toby Man "Get Back up Again"

You turned away when I looked you in the eye,
And hesitated when I asked if you were alright,
Seems like you're fighting for you life,
But why? oh why?
Wide awake in the middle of your nightmare,
You saw it comin' but it hit you outta no where,
And theres always scars
When you fall back far

We lose our way,
We get back up again
It's never too late to get back up again,
One day you will shine again,
You may be knocked down,
But not out forever,
Lose our way,
We get back up again,
So get up, get up,
You gonna shine again,
Never too late to get back up again,
You may be knocked down,
But not out forever
(May be knocked down but not out forever)

You're rolled out at the dawning of the day
Heart racin' as you made you little get away,
It feels like you've been runnin' all your life
But, why? Oh why?

So you've pulled away from the love that would've been there,
You start believin' that your situation's unfair

But there's always scars,
When you fall back far

We lose our way,
We get back up again
Never too late to get back up again,
One day, you gonna shine again,
You may be knocked down but not out forever,
Lose our way, we get back up again,
So get up, get up
You gonna shine again
It's never too late, to get back up again
You may be knocked down, but not out forever,
May be knocked down, but not out forever!

This is love callin', love callin', out to the broken,
This is love callin'.
This is love callin', love callin', out to the broken
This is love callin'.
This is love callin', love callin',
I am so broken
This is love callin' love callin

Lose our way, (way way way ay ay ay)
We get back up, (get back up again)
It's never too late (late late late ate ate ate)
You may be knocked down but not out forever!

Lose our way,
We get back up again,
So get up get up
You gonna shine again
Never too late to get back up again
You may be knocked down,
But not out forever,

This is love (lose our way) callin' love callin' (get back up again)
To the broken
This is love (never too late) callin'
(may be knocked down but not out forever)
This is love (lose our way) callin' love callin' (we get back up again)
To the broken
This is love (never too late) callin'
(may be knocked down but not out forever)

This is love callin' love callin'
Out to the broken,
This is love callin'....

Gmail

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Hi Friends, I have heard many people say they cannot leave comments. I think you have to create a gmail user name first. Also I did not know all the responses were going to my gmail account. I have corrected that.

The Day After

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So it's the day after Valentines day, and I survived. Not without my own screw ups for better or worse. I think this time I screwed up on purpose just to force the issue. Sometimes the things we want most for ourselves are the worst things for us.

So I picked myself up, brushed off the dust, and know that God has more for me to learn and do. I ask God almost every day....Whats the deal? Why can't I see the big picture? By all rights, I should be dead right now. God, however must have a reason for keeping me alive. I really don't know what that is. I can guess or speculate, but no more.

Here are the lyrics to a  song I love and now has special meaning. I guess I just want to be remembered by the ones I love and that they know how much it meant to me to have them in my life. There is one person who has put up with more of my whining and crying than anyone should ever have to put up with, and that is my good friend Susie. Also Darlene has been and Angel, and of course Robin has my respect and although it is unlikely we will ever talk or see each other again, there will always be a special place for you in my heart.

As I look at the valleys down below
They are green just as far as I can see
As my memories return, oh how my heart did yearn
For you and the days that used to be 
 
High on a mountain top, standing all alone
Wondering where the years of my life have flown
High on a mountaintop, wind blowing free
Thinking about the days that used to be
Well, I wonder if you ever think of me
Or has time erased your memory
As I listen to the breeze whisper gently through the trees
I wonder if you ever think of me

High on a mountain top, standing all alone
Wondering where the years of my life have flown
High on a mountaintop, wind blowing free
Thinking about the days that used to be
High on a mountain top, standing all alone
Wondering where the years of my life have flown
High on a mountaintop, wind blowing free
Thinking about the days that used to be

High on a mountain top
Thinking about the days that used to be
And I wonder if you ever think of me
 

High on the Mountain Top.

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I wanted to share this song with you.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OxwtTNk6NlQ